Abortion{Talking to myself}
(5-9-2k2)


I climb the stairs which lead into the building
Nervously,I twist my sweater in my hands
I'm overcome by a new fear
When I stop to wonder..


WHY AM I DOING THIS
when I know I dont have to?
AM I SELFISH
for wanting my life to remain mine?
WHY DONT I BELIEVE
that I can handle this?
WHY DIDNT I THINK
before I let this happen?


I shake my head to clear those thoughts
and open the mirrored door
As I pull it open I catch a glimpse
Of the person I am not,anymore
And I just cant help but think..


WHY AM I DOING THIS
when I know its all my fault?
AM I SELFISH
For wanting my body to remain mine?
WHY DONT I BELIEVE
the life inside me will forgive?
WHY DIDNT I THINK
that this could happen to me?


Before I can see the pain on the walls
I turn and walk away
I unlock my car door,sobbing
Thinking about what a gift thought is